May 17, 2008 at 6:34 pm (A little perspective, Life)
Tags: death, family, joy, Life, pain, prayer, reflection, rest in peace, sadness
Beyond the door
There’s peace I’m sure.
And I know there’ll be no more…
Tears in heaven
I talked about my ex’s friend who was on life support after giving birth to a healthy baby. She passed on leaving behind a husband of less than two years and a week old baby who will never feel his mother’s touch.
Life is short. And now the uncertainty of financing grad school seems stupid. The anger over my son’s lousy elementary school and the frustrations due to my Upward Bound students’ laziness all seem like worthless issues to exert so much emotion over today.
Now I feel lucky. Lucky enough to be able to experience those emotions at all. Lucky that I may have touched and motivated the life of at least one of the students I worked with. Lucky that I have a son I’ve watched grow up over the last nine years. Lucky that breath runs through my body which enables me to make mistakes, dream and enjoy.
I can think back and see her laughing, enjoying our day, and talking about the future. We all know our time on Earth is short. But she never knew it would be this short. That day we laughed and laughed and laughed none of us knew her time was winding down.
I am, by no means, a religious person. And maybe that means I don’t have the right to post this but I will because it just rings true to how I feel right now.
we thank you now for all her life,
for every memory of love and joy,
for every good deed done by her
and every sorrow shared with us.
We thank you for her life and for her death,
we thank you for the rest in Christ she now enjoys,
we thank you for giving her to us…
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May 16, 2008 at 7:00 am (Dating and Relationships, Life)
Tags: birth, breakup, Dating, death, illness, Life, love, marriage, prayer, reflection, regret, relationship
I was set to talk about why my son’s nickname is Soldier but I received a pretty sad phone call that has left me contemplating life. It was a call from an ex-boyfriend; THE ex-boyfriend, the only one that has ever mattered. The only one that made me want to get married.
He called to tell me about his friends; they are married and they had a baby last Thursday. I met her when I went to visit the ex. We shared a girls’ day at the hair salon and then off to get a manicure and pedicure. Later that night the three of us went out for dinner and drinks. I never met her then fiance because he was working overseas during that time. This is their first child together.
The baby is healthy but unfortunately she had a hole in her heart. It filled during the delivery and she has already undergone two heart surgeries. It doesn’t look good and the doctors will attempt to save her again with one more surgery. I only met her that one day but the tears fell in a steady stream down my face. I took to her instantly. She was happy that ‘the boy’ and I were getting married. She and her husband just had a baby. What must he be going through? What about the baby? Read the rest of this entry »
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May 15, 2008 at 11:05 am (Life)
Tags: career, challenges, change, fulfillment, happiness, indecisive, Life
One of the sports writers I’ve always enjoyed was Dan LeBatard of the Miami Herald. He had the right balance of ‘hey superstar athlete you’re a moron’ and ‘hey idiot fan, get off your judgmental high horse’ that suits my own personal take on the world of sports.
Muffy, who is not only wonder woman mommy but sports nut, sent me the link to Dan’s latest article, “Time to open a new chapter in my life“. In it he tells of his need to “concentrate on building the bridge to the second half of my life.” Thats is me. I am currently working towards another part of my life. I have so many dreams, ambitions and interests (as noted in the About page) that I don’t know what to do first or what I really want to do.
I can pretty much trace my indecisiveness about career and job to the Army. Its good for creating a jack of all trades, master of none. I did a little bit of everything. So I could bounce back and forth from different offices whose duties had nothing to do with each other. And I have to say I somewhat liked being a floater, the ringer, the closer. The person who could (learn just enough) to wing it get the job done. Read the rest of this entry »
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